I have not written much over the past month or so. The typical bullshit which used to get me worked up has lost a little bit of its importance to me as of late. I am not sure where this newfound apathy is coming from, but it didn't come alone. The past month has had me asking questions of myself, which I can only hope are normal and not the precursor to some sort of midlife crisis. Lately I have been pondering, more than usual, my existence. I am not sure that I know what I am here for. I mean, I think I live an average life...I eat, sleep, have fun, work, and pay bills like everyone else. I just wonder, sometimes, if there is more out there. I feel like I need a larger sense of purpose, or perhaps some sort of paradigm shift in the way I see things. I had thought for years that when I was in my 30s, I would be married with kids in my own place. This societal norm, I have found, is in fact not that normal. I know a handful of people who are married and even fewer with children. I think that I keep a broad mix of friends so I can only deduce that they are representative of my age group. I wonder at times if my daily activities even matter. I am confident that I add value to the company. I think training for the triathlon is important. And more than anything, right now, my work with the Young Associates Board is the only "non-Dan" worthwhile thing I am doing with my life. I want more, but can't define "more". Does that even make fucking sense? Did I miss something? Was there a course in school where they talked about this shit? I must have missed that class or something...Anyway, I am not sure where I was going with all this, and maybe that is the problem...
It has been about 1.5 months now since I have been either running, riding, or both 5 days a week. Although my endurance is way up and my legs are like steel, I am not really losing any trunk weight. I know that I need to focus on my core to get the results that I want, I am just not sure that toning that area will help with the triathlon...Usually I am pretty tired after my normal workout and I really don't see myself adding additional exercises to my routine. Anyway, I am very happy with my times so far. I began training a few months earlier this year compared to last and I think that will pay off greatly in August. It is kind of funny...my friend signed me up to a gym with a pool about 5 weeks ago, if not more, and I have yet to get in the pool...HAHAHA...I am giving my legs a break this week after my 8.7 mile jaunt last week. I will likely do a 10K over the weekend and return to the normal routine next week when I am back in
Other than that, there really aint shit to talk about...there is NOTHING new going on...save summer is coming!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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